You go through the daily motions of living. Everything is routine, normal. Not boring, no. Just life happening and you don’t really pay attention to it.So you wake up, go for a walk, do yoga, read the newspaper, talk to the husband or wife or kid, pet the dog, get ready for work, mentally tick the to-do list, have afternoon tea, gossip with your friend, bunk office early, catch the sunset, read a great book,feel pleased about the perfect roast,party hard etc.
And sometimes it happens that on such a perfect and normal day , a restlessness fills you. Some combination of the yesterday, the today and the tomorrow of your life grip you. You remember a person you love or a shared memory or a dream or a longing/yearning.You watch it with detachment or actually try to stay detached from it. The ‘evolved’ amongst us employ various methods /techniques to achieve this. But we don’t really succeed.
We just lie about it to ourselves. We turn into cowards. We attribute lofty meanings to our decision. Responsibility, accountability,morality,duty.
And go on with life once again.
Only the chosen ones surrender to the restlessness. To wander and be lost.
But then “Not all those who wander are lost.”( Tolkien,The Fellowship of the Ring).
Only the chosen one does not get lost. But meets another beautiful wanderer who tells her/him:
“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
there is a field. I’ll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about.”
And, then “Ideas, language, even the phrase “each other” doesn’t make any sense” ( Rumi )
(I tend to live life musically and lyrically. I thought about the right song for this post,this state of mind.It was very difficult.There had to be constant movement,there had to be being away from the crowd,there had to be courage & intensity, there had to be wandering and being lost, there had to be meeting another wanderer, there had to be finding each other.I chose the song ‘Tum Jo Mil Gaye Ho”. It always has been a huge favorite.)
(Since we are talking about this very lovely song, just wanted to share the Coke Studio version of it too. Being trained in Hindustani Classical music, I was brought up to swear allegiance to the ‘purity’ in music. But the rebel in me chaffed at any kind of regimentation. Everything should be free and un-restrained. Thus, I like experimentation in music. Fusion music. Take a hear. I don’t like it too much though. And I personally feel Coke Studio ,Pakistan is much superior)